Welcome. I’m Amanda.
If you’ve ever felt caught between belief and experience,
between what you were taught and what life has shown you,
or between longing and hesitation — you are in good company.
The Hesitant Prodigal is a space for Christians, and seekers, who love Jesus deeply and want to follow Him
but don’t fit neatly into the boxes they were handed.
It’s a refuge for those who carry questions with integrity,
who feel the tension between identity and faith,
and who long for a spirituality that can breathe.
Here, you don’t need to have everything figured out.
You only need to show up honest.
WHAT YOU’LL FIND HERE
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Reflections & Essays
Thoughtful writing on faith, identity, Scripture, nuance, and spiritual resilience.
Courses & Workbooks
Guided modules to help you grow in emotional maturity, tension-holding, and contemplative faith.
The Paradox Journal
Quiet letters, spiritual insights, and reflective practices delivered to your inbox.
Resources for the Journey
Tools and gentle guidance for LGBTQ+ Christians and those walking alongside them.
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